We met for the first time

By: Palak

I was in school, a teacher, a girl full of emotions and dreams in her eyes....never knew this place would change my life totally. It was going summer camp and luckily i got a friend which is quiet unexpected in school as they say, in school you are ideal for students but for me, he was my savior and that too rajput.....I know the combination is dope. It was an usual camp routine when i saw him for the first time playing volleyball...and...my heart skipped a beat....it was so fast that i couldn't figure what just happened but trust me it was something that has never happened before. There was something special about him, his eyes were so deep, his style....i have never seen a guy more handsome....out of all, he caught my eyes i called it "a sweet moment of my life".  Unfortunately it was ended very soon.....it was sticky summer day, i got a call from my friend and i listened his voice, which is unexpected and hollyshit the guy who just few days ago gave me the best feeling, he was talking to me....i was shivering but deep inside my heart was dancing. I was ecstatic high on feelings call it crush or love...on the first sight i was on cloud nine😍....
From that day everything seemed beautiful even the boring lectures.... I started enjoying everything used to wait for that moment when i will get to see him one glance at him was enough to make my day...."mein nahi kehti ye pyar tha par jo bhi tha acha ehsaas tha jisme sirf use dekhne ki khawaish thi or itna hi kaafi tha❤️"
For me this was the beginning and ending of sweet story...but little did i know that destiny had a different plan for us. It was day he came outside my home to see me....and i were waiting for him..... he passed and guess what...it was OMG, a conversation started between my heart and brain...i should stop him....should i say hi or hello....no you will sound desperate, don't smile like an idiot and by the time i made my mind let him go.....and all my *"arman"* vanished😬
On 2nd october 2019, i were alone at home and he was on tracking.....want to talk to him but his phone was unreachable.....worried about him...and suddenly the phone rang, and it was his call.....we talked a lot,a lot and a lot.....on the next day, i got something shit.....like what the fuck? Should i believe on him or my friend? Should i continue with my crush or love wali feelings or not? Then i discussed with him and finally want to take a new startup with him....i ignored everything just because of  having faith in him....and for the love.....
On 17th october 2019,  when we met and confessed our love🙈....he hold my hands and looking into my eyes....that moment ahahahhhhaa....i was on the top, again my heart was dancing💃, i want to hug him but i couldn't.....still remember that moment, i felt like cindrella😬 He came close to me...i was breathing heavily than he comforted me like a gentle mam....
After 3-4 days, i realised.....as the history repeats itself... what would happen if he goes or left me? 
From that day i spoiled our sweet moments....i loved him alot but having afraid of loosing him.....which turned us.....the girl with full of fear and the boy with full of love....And atlast *my fear won, his love lost*.....and since then i were waiting for him....i don't know who said but it feels so right: *you don't find love....love finds you❤️....*