Anchored in this Moment

I want to thank you for just being a part of my life, in whatever way that may be. Thank you for existing in my world, whether we are side by side or miles apart. Just knowing you are out there makes the world feel like a much less scary place to be. Somehow, you have always had this pull on me—even during the times you were not physically there, you were still the person I turned to in my head. Whenever life got too loud, I could find my way back to a sense of calm just by remembering the weight of your arms and the way you made me feel safe. You have been my anchor long before I ever had the words to tell you.

I appreciate your calmness more than I can ever explain. I am used to the chaos of every kind of abuse, and living in a constant state of flight or fighting has always been my only reality. But your energy has this ability to pull me out of that—to quiet the noise and let me finally breathe. Even when we were younger, you had this way of making everything still that I have never been able to find with anyone else. It did not matter how much time had passed; every time I ended up back in your arms, the world finally felt calm again. It is peace I am still learning to manage, but for the first time in my life, it feels like it belongs to me, and I feel like I deserve it.

It is hard for me to find the right words when I am not hiding behind the structure of a poem. It is terrifying; it wants to stand in the open without any armor. Even though I have always felt safe in your arms, it is still a leap to let you see the real, unedited truth of how much you mean to me. I am dropping the polished lines so you can see everything.

I will be honest, there is a part of me that is terrified of losing this stillness again, because I finally know what it feels like to be okay. But I want you to know that while I cherish every second of this, I never want you to feel anchored here out of any sense of obligation. Your presence is a gift, and a gift only counts if it is given freely. I want you to be wherever you are happiest, even if that path eventually leads somewhere else.

I watch you, and I am so fiercely proud of you that it aches. Most people do not see the silent battles you fight or the weight you carry with that smile, but I see it. I see the warrior in you. Your strength does not just inspire me; it changes me. It makes me want to be better, braver, and softer all at once.

I do not have a map for where we are going. I do not know if we are a long story or a beautiful, brief one, but I am trying so hard to do what you taught me—to stop looking past today and just be here. Right now, in the moment, I am just so lucky for the time I get to spend with you. Every second spent by your side has been a gift I have held onto since the very beginning.

Grateful for every second,

Your Good Girl