Mirage

I have this life

Thank you God for

Showing me the way…

I have tasted all the pleasure

And its pain

Now I’m forsaken

in the dampness abyss

For no one can lift me

Except You

Give me thy happiness

Patience is a virtue

Earned from perseverance

My skin glows and darkens

With the lines of time…

I have transcended these vast skies

Where the moon and the stars

Have witnessed me roam

Somewhere between the symphony of winds

And the raging fires of life

I lost my Beloved

Why do I feel a familiar sense

Walking where I walk

Like I lived

And now I have come unexpectedly

To witness my own martyrdom

I have given all that I had to

And now I’m standing

Alone in my triumph

True love holds no boundaries

It gets lost in its devotion

Everything else seems less ordinary

To a life once foretold

Remnants linger and harbor

The shows of victory

Sounds of laughter cry in a

Distance far so loving

I’m a true lover

of hearts,

My eyes have filled me

With an unseen exuberance

Which touches the breathing

Of my mind

How I wish to live

Another life,

Had i known of the

Indifferences it can cause

My mothers love defeats

my morality

And I must forsake this impurity

Thy love for God

Is the only immaculate force

That binds truly.

I must go away to

get salvation of these

Yearned years I have earned

Foreign lands could not

Bring the peace

A missionary seeks.

These land traversed are

hues of the belonging

Not a tear can separate

Thy soul in a lost universe!

In humility shall I

Covet my shroud

None to persist the burden

once more

So alarming yet beautiful

this air feels,

Like sounds of light

disperse as we speak!

Some see dust

I see life!

How unexpected to find this rare rose in my garden,

I wait for its full bloom

And admired the luster in its petals and thorns,

Some pluck it, some savor it,

I took pride in it

Every morning to see its delight

Until one day,

A thief stole it and sold

Never did I find such a rose again!

The pain lives in our soul,

A hidden secret buried in

A mind languished

with fears of reality dawning

in an awaking hour

True existence lost

in the busy hours of survival

How to live on

when death has already

overtaken the soul.

There are no secrets in this life

The seasons live and relive

yesteryears desires of achievers and ignominy

Our innate constancy

Wiles are egoistic mind

And we martyr our souls to the hands of time!

Prelude for Peace

How I suffer in silence

Your insolence left me burning in ruins,

I will not bow to your pieces,

That scatter ignorance beyond guidance,

Let our third bereave

the misery that divides

Abraham from his folk.

Joseph

Would I be a fool

falling for your love

following your path

that led me astray.

Did ye not flinch

when you threw me in darkness

where my cries of wolf couldn’t be heard

How I waited for love

to flash for a second in your hearts

where I could exhale my breaths or so

in a lonely dungeon or

the vast corridors of my palace!

Jacob

Is it the love that burns before me

in my eye

Or my pride stripped

before you lied

Perhaps my requital before its time

Yet the cloak speaks for itself

Heaven is when your aroma touches

his smoldered eyes resurrect a soul

Where it once resided

restless but in patience.

Eve

I desired to remain Adams rib

To give him the pleasures of Angels hymns

If i had not desired

We could have all that He was

But how could love fail me

Perhaps if I wasn’t so blind

to love the commander more so

The rampant urge took the better of me

Seized me to hell

If only my Envy had turned to dust1

Your subliminal presence

has every notion of me submissive

of your greatness

My tongue bears no resistance

when your spirit is whom I hear

Martyr my soul

for those who beseech to hear.

I am just a Believer

When I set to seek you and research

Like Fossils speaking the life underneath

Fearing debris will erode

The stories of time

and legends ended

I now seek to be His true believer

For what I have found

And let His guidance renew the tales once told.

Everyone is waiting

For something profound

To happen to them!

Adam

I have only to blame myself

to befall into the clutches

of wavering thoughts!

My Beloved loathes the evil

Amiss ,

Yet I could not save her

Bellows of wind that warned me in our Haven,

before she stumbled upon me

where no grief nor shame belie in our eyes

How did my ribs release her soul,

When her fate was mine.

Tears roll by my eyes

This holy month

When we feel the starving

Of earth and animals that live

Parches my throat

and quenches the delight

of the humming bird

The black thread has emerged

for us to begin..

Wherever you roamed alone in silence,

seeking,

Your heavy heart, burdened your back, restless,

Alas! Rise from the fall

Your soul captivates thy wandering heart

So lend another ear or hand

And inspire with gratification

for an honorable hereafter.

Struggles are made to Fade!

The true test of time Awaits…

If it wasn’t for your inspiration that guided me

I would have still been a restless orphan

Begging and searching

for Light!

Loneliness makes you realize,

how desirable you once were

And how irony shapes your Desires.

It is inevitable

that one day

You will be held

accountable.

If the heart does not beat in a mother,

Morality has indeed died!

Only an insane

can be oblivious

to tears of expression.

God, save us from Life!

Won’t you people listen to the caller,

He is indeed chosen,

Or haven’t you noticed?

For the richness he encompasses

Are like the recesses of an ocean

Or that of the pastures

Or those mountains

that protect aright.

What a beautiful token from God,

You beget,

A heavenly creature

Grazing amidst your rancor

Instead of relinquishing thirst

You hamstring the likes of your fate,

Even mountains cleave

To expel your remains

While the earth unwillingly

Buries you!

I had loved that face

For so many years

Every expression i learnt

In observation

But now in silence

We depart to our valleys

For how many years,

I so dread…

Till dust becomes her

The devils dont rest

Till they steal your prayers

And captivate your soul

If you are destined

to beg

And your palace

an enclave for others

Retribution is but a mercy

for your peaceful slumber

I am halfway there

to the finished line

The earth welcomes me

in open arms and

the sky musks the rain

down pour

The sun and moon both jealous

That my time has finally come!

I suppose you fellows

Loved my brother like me

And he loves my Father in Heaven

Who will take me amidst ye all!

Do not fear to spread my message

But do save yourselves to spread the truth!

Call me Yeshua or Eshu, I am Esa .. Slave of God

O Haggar

Be a rib

as that was to Adam

For me and Abraham

In this valley

of two hills,

Lies a story that

springs your heart

So innocent yet brave Ismail

Adheres to his father

And then his Lord shakes his senseless dream

And following whispers,

Thus, the Lords creature, shall appear

And make this test a day to celebrate Gods love and life.

The ends torn

Off, like the unseen

Death of fate.

My love for you and your seasoned months

Yearn of those days

Like yesterday

I feel the blues

For not savouring the moments

I now just seek.

Your friendship protects me,

More than my mother

For you can see the

Darkness in my heart

While you purify it as

I glorify thee..

Some people are better

To be left alone

Their lack of foresight

Lags in comprehension

of their own intellect

confusion

As i wait watching hues

saturate,

My happiness which lasts

every minute

A lover pledges to meet me

In my matrimony bliss,

How vague is reality exhaust

Deprived of white blood or tears.

If only i could

explain

To any who is really

listening

Oh the burden of a

progeny

How will I bear?

Must it be of me or mine

For I will always remain

A part of him

Even if I did not bear

Bring me an heir o Haggar

You are also mine

We will remain forever!

Black can become

white

But can never

return

And has never turned

Loyalty is what

you need to earn,

Unturned..

It is unpleasant to

walk in a new age,

When you do not

share the same views!

How old did I turn

today?

The map to my house

is no more the same

How a few years

brought this colossal

change..

When do I wither from

my own feign

If only I could stitch

your words in my heart,

Then too my tears would not

stop yearning to hear

from you

This bond is indeed

immortal residing in

Carnality defiance

I heard your voice

And my heart released

a painful relief,

Your thoughts resonate in my mind

And you are ever so living

In front of me,

How will true bond survive

When the wicked hate the loveth,

May you attain wisdom of my love

Once you think on your own

In solidarity the

prodigal son harrows his fate,

Clenching the subservient mountains

Looking yonder,

But the gallows of the earth

buried him

Engulfing everything

The skies cried like the father

Submerging his ark and

Carrying forward the lenient prayers nigh,

A mountain fold barrier

Even to the holy

Shall a wretch begets,

Must you not know

Whom you love?

You shall be born

But your destiny

Is where you lead

it!

When it is preordained

Then for a mere cause,

It is easy to say

“Be”

And it shall Become!

And the ribs ache for the

soul moving in discomfort,

How my breaths seizes

And tears flow,

Seeking desperately for

answers in the sky,

Yet the lonely heart awaits

the abyss of time

In shallow minds…

I only wanted to touch

the realms of love…

The hidden heart seems

well protected

From a foreign air where

dust settles in despair

The shock thus tremors

the eyes of hurt.

Brothers of Madyan

Watch in horror

And sweep them in,

Unscathed differences

yet await to befall,

Envious of Shoaib and

leave no stone unturned

How quick the wrath

Engulfs them with raging

winds changing

Their home forever

You can never own

anyone,

Nor their love

Nor their loyalty

It wavers like our thoughts

And how dreadful burning

every minute

Waiting for him to be yours

Perhaps your eyes

need to die every desire

Or let dreams and fantasies

saturate from the

Core of your heart…

And let breathing

be the only Mercy of your living in

His Honor

If i reach your

Throne,

And when I enter

the top most heavens

of your threshold,

Whom do I give this news to?

The sweetest sound

which tastes like

honey

For the one who hears,

And how fortunate

was he, who heard

the Beloved pour

How sweet would

be hearing the glorious

Quran

From the mouth of

Muhammad

O Possessor

of the Unknown

Whats my name?

The Chosen

remain

unknown of a

Name Known

Yet lost in time but

So the Scripture holds

Call me Abraham

The Honest

Friend of

The Lord of Creatures

How terrifying is reality

to wake up

from your nightmare

And then realize

that the dream

was some what better

What have I done amiss

to be let alone

and left out

from portents of my heart

Where my family reside

A thousand curses

wouldn’t do justice

for the time apart

of the love

that cursed my family apart.

Woe! To those

who separated

the only parents from me

I am far to get aligned

with the tongue spoken

yonder

How effective is speech

from that of fear and

sadness gloom

The rapture indeed caught

within the spears of heart

Oh Dad, you left me in silence

And the winds enraged

Leaving me

Another puppet

Hanging by a thread

My love is as immaculate

As the silent whistle

of blowing winds

As disperse as the white light,

Showering above heavens,

So untouched from the

flame that burns my soul.

If my eyes voiced

the pain it gathers

Would they swallow

their pride from tears

Where do I hover

From east to west or

even both the easts…

For it seems if I am

Below, you will always

be above at a niche.

Perhaps the cross

has no bearing

But witnesses saw

a smoke emerge while

the Beloved ascended

Mounted above all

the vision was clear

Escalating breaths of fear

Calm my Beloved oh God!

I am the Queen of Tears

I was born today

In a holy month,

a holy day

I do come in crying

from this threshold

And I cry till I depart

for my resurrection

I have warranted

for your actions

to emerge like the seas

both expelling

their bitter sweet end!

Exonerate the Son of No Man…

For no man can adhere

to another mans selfish

motives and desires.

Fiza, loathes at her selfish praises

God indeed fulfills her demands.

A mothers distance

is by far the worst

punishment to be felt!

If you only cared

less for wealth

and more for what

your blood bleeds

The en-masse ignorance

pandama

Thus, sits for God

to come down

And level with His

people Himself

How can I touch your

heart,

when we all speak

the same language

Yet in disarrayed dispersion

We seek Above…

Perhaps destiny shall join

the heaven and earth again

My love burns like ember,

ignites and illuminates the soul

How cherished are you

and to find an immaculate fold

Some memories

are so special even

if they are insignificant

These fragments come out

of thin air

And relive the air with

all the zest and

unspoken words.

Oh God! Do not burden

me with this life

Let me join and celebrate

your praises amongst

the company of yours

and my favorite men

It is failure

When you recognise

danger yet be

optimistic

Wisdom comes

with experience

and foresight

A masterpiece is

a perfected improvisation

Man is an Actor

His tears can

flow any time !

The world is just

a place of battle

for the color White!

It is when the

heart weeps

In slow yet

fast sniffs,

Thus, is broken

Deliver me from

this ordeal

Where the mind

is absent even

though the eyes

of time are

still open

It was your Face

Oh mother

That resonated

my soul

And uplifted my spirits,

Now all I have,

is a vision, a fantasy

or a memory

The eyes are hazy

losing lustre

Because to the one

who bears the

sweetest name

has taken off Blindly!

By the sun and the moon,

Praise be the Lord

It is your bounty

in Thy words

That reflects on

this universe,

illuminating the world

with your Divine Light

Read, till the eyes

speak!

The language of the

mind resides

in the soul,

A vision

from God,

transpiring within!

I will lead the flawed

To unfold their inner souls!

Immaculate is

he,

whose heart is

free

and speaks for

Peace..

Now that you proclaimed

a challenge,

The eyes have set fire

upon God,

So ye shall turn to dust!

It is those who

hate the sword

When a fight

begins, do they

cut deep,

Stabbing the back,

of their brother!

Tears overflow

Like waves gushing forth

Blinding the vision

of my cornerstone

The hands once joined,

illuminated the skies

But now follows

the heart in abyss

The hardest thing to

watch,

I tell you this, for a women,

is to see her love,

with his chosen,

walk away

without turning.

The heart aches in perseverance

May God show His

chosen path and

alleviate the pain

So hard was his mission

O Ninevehites!

Do you see it now?

Unnatural mammal lives

to teach thee

For God did make his way

easy in the end,

But a lesson

he will never forget,

nor do we forget

and so the Anointed

shall claim His victory

Your loved ones are

cherished by our souls

Aspiring to reach realms

and follow

the neon lights

encompassing

where sights befell

The painter will always be stumped,

in awe hesitatingly

How innocent was the father

to watch the rivalry

of the elder between the younger,

Just like the raven

scratching upon the earths surface,

Where the brother was swallowed

and so the fury fuels

till the end of time

Still the unveiled mysteries

of time,

lift the truth

Can it set me free

had the unknown come

in front of me,

like a thunderbolt it

ceases the living

A premonition of future

captured in a captive child

Even the uncloaked

loathes the end

of Your Book and his biopic

For those who cannot see

the mystery that delights those

who keep reading a new chapter

of a sign which correctly befalls

on a long journey

which ends too soon.

So the Son of Man

was raised

on a pole to die

But his Lord,

the only One,

of all races and creeds

rescued him

In front of everyone,

showing the miracle of flight

and raising

his beloved Messiah

unto Himself.

What a victory and triumph

for the hosts of heaven and earth

To wave asunder the gates

He so knoweth

Shall soweth

the seed

in the minds

of the believers

Oh my dearest beloved

father

How my eyes searched

for you

And scanned through those

ample crowds,

waiting and cheering

to receive their dear ones

How I longed

to fly

through those gates

Giving you

everlasting hugs of joy.

Has anyone stolen your love away

and sent him away

to place where they never return?

The loss is felt every day

Till you yearn

Earn your death

If only God, gave me a sign

That this was your final journey

I would have rescued you

from the evil clutches

who had detained you

Now all I have

are few ebbing memories

I so cherish

Waiting to reunite

with you my dearest Father

23 june 2017

Songs of yesteryears

Bring adrift the past set before you

In a glimpse, you are floated right back to what took centuries to crawl from